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Frustration Upon Frustration

June 1, 2009


The other day I was  happily hanging up my first week of laundry on the clothesline.  I was enjoying the juxtaposition of the warm sun heating my skin and the wet clothes cooling it as I brushed past them.  Relishing the quiet, outdoor time that hanging laundry forces upon me.  All of this was dashed a few hours later when I discovered that our puppy had jumped into the garden area again and dragged many pieced of clothing off the line and through the garden and I was just filled with frustration.

This year has been difficult for so many and we haven’t been spared from this.  Yet, it hasn’t only been economics that have given rise to frustration.  Though our finances are not going to allow me to build and fill the raised beds that I have had planned since late last summer, I could have worked around that and tilled up some ground to plant my vegetables.  However, our puppy can get into the garden and I don’t see a way that we are going to be able to keep her out.  She is an excellent jumper and we can’t be outside 24 hours per day.  So, for until we figure out a solution, the garden is unusable as a garden and my clothesline is also out of commission.  I feel incredible frustration that I can’t use the 60% of my yard that is my enclosed garden area.  There are some many projects around here that we had to put on hold for various reasons these past few months and I feel a great disappointment that everything feels so stagnant right now.

I’m so frustrated with 2009 so far.  Our ailing economy does trickle down to most of us.   And it creates a good amount of stress that is ever-present, I’m wishing (hoping) that the second half of 2009 will improve, but I’m really not holding my breath.

9 Comments leave one →
  1. Mom permalink
    June 1, 2009 12:39 pm

    I am so sorry to hear about the clothes and not be able to use your garden area for it’s intended purpose.

  2. Mom permalink
    June 1, 2009 12:40 pm

    I forgot to add that it sucks that your clothesline is out of commission also.

  3. Prairie Momma permalink
    June 2, 2009 9:40 am

    I’m sorry about things going so rough. I can relate. After struggling for so many years to acquire our dream, we are finding ourselves in a position to lose it all and have to move. We continue to pray and trust that God’s best will happen, but it is hard when life doesn’t give us what we want. I am finding myself wanting to throw temper tantrums a lot lately. In the midst of all this, we’ve had to watch family members lose a 2 year old and an 8 year old. Both deaths have really admonished me to focus on what matters – the eternal things. 2009 has been a hard year as far as health, deaths, finances, but I must admit that 2009 has really been a great year so far to bring me back to simplicity and focusing on what matters (and secretly, I must admit, I’m learning to be more content with things). I can’t decide for things to get better for the rest of the year or just be happy life hasn’t dealt me as hard a blow as it could. Hang in there – you’re not alone. 🙂

  4. June 3, 2009 5:26 pm

    Thanks Mom.

    Oh Cathy,I hope that things work out for you in the best way possible. I know that you all have wanted your ranch for so long.

    You are very right. We have not had as hard a blow as some and we should be thankful for that. It’s sometimes very hard when our immediate stresses are so real.

    We are provided for in so many ways and when I start to get down, small blessings come our way, like a price break at the store or a friend bringing two jars of homemade jam and jelly, or a gift of heirloom vegetable starts.

  5. June 4, 2009 6:52 pm

    and sometimes life just sucks like that.


    lists and dreams never disappear. just take longer sometimes.

  6. Jana permalink
    June 5, 2009 9:36 am

    Maybe the puppy needs a new home?

    How about some container gardening this year? Tomato and patty squash and of course all sorts of herbs which you know.

    I’m sorry things seem so grey right now. I’ll hope for blue skies to be popping out for you quickly.

  7. Prairie Momma permalink
    June 6, 2009 12:04 am

    Lisa, I agree about seeing how things aren’t always as bad as they first appear. I have really been strugging with staying focused on what I do have rather than on seeing what I don’t (or might lose). One day, I do hope to finally have the blessing of contentment ALL the time – right now, I’m just not there. Praying for you – and yesterday after we had finished planting our garden, that “dear” labrador puppy of Rebecca’s thought it was all for her to start digging in. I’m just wondering if puppies are supposed to be in our “things we feel blessed about” category?? The jury’s still out on that one here at the ranch. 🙂

  8. June 6, 2009 1:11 pm

    Oh no! I hope your garden didn’t get too damaged by the puppy!

  9. Prairie Momma permalink
    June 8, 2009 10:48 am

    Garden is fine at this moment (fence going up as I type), but the girls’ flower bed was attacked last night. Ahhh, the joys of puppies….arrrggghhh

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